Saturday, August 6, 2016

Lost in Woods

How often do I neglect the small things in life?
Fresh air, fallen leaves, forehead kisses.
I ran out of luck but never run out of blessing,
where you're counted as one and only.

I hold onto your reflection while I look past your shadow...

Fresh air;
I get to breathe in your scent once again,
Fallen leaves;
Keep holding me, my gravity,
Forehead kisses:

How often we forget how we've been shaped before?
We just remember the state we are now;
Settled and safe and sound.
We have learned to deal with pain in the past.
But somehow,
They're lurking in the corner, and we're still amateurs.

We're still hurt and not getting better
We lost each other and we can't find another

We're chasing down love that's a heartbreak away </3

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Bullying in real life.

Mainstream topic, but why not.

I'm that kind of person who loves to read articles, news, or whatsoever and scroll down right to the comments section. I love to read other people's opinions about something, I think it helps me learn to open my horizon somehow. I love reading inspiring, encouraging, and constructive comments, but lately, it's really hard to find them.

Nowadays, people tend to bully rather than to give constructive critizism. Do you guys know Awkarin? The recent 'selebgram', who rose up because of her latest vlog which gained 2M views. WOW. 2M views. At first I'm wondering, how good is her vlog? I mean, how good is she compared to Zoella, beauty vlogger from British who just got her diamond play button from Youtube because of her 10M subscribers? But no, her subscribers just hit the number 120K or something. not as big as Zoella's. But who's this girl? A lot of young girls idolize her, making her their role model, and her relationship as their #relationshipgoals (which sadly, just ended, so is it still a #relationshipgoals then? :D)

But oh boy, what a girl she is.

Living in Indonesia, with such a lot of conventional minds around, I know it's hard to be her. She's soo young (18 at age) but already living the so-called thug life. Nightclubs, liquor, cigarette, kissing, is her daily bread and butter. In America, yes maybe it's cool, but here in Indonesia? Man, this girl is looking for some trouble. It's even more troubling when she's being idolized by a lot of younger girls out there. Yes, this calls for some concern.

But aside from her negative portfolio, I have to say she's cool, man. Not her lifestyle, but her ability to earn 32M rupiahs per two days ON HER OWN. I mean... I'm still living off my mother's money. I'm a useless potato.

Okay, moving on.

Not just her ability to earn her own money, but she also has a great skill in video editing and also her instagram gallery is soo pleasing to see. I loooove her instagram feed. It's consistently pretty. See? Everything has two sides, the good and the bad. But too bad our society prefer to see the bad side rather than the good side. A lot of people left comment on her instagram or youtube account, some are nice, but most of them are destructive words. Yes, I know, I'm not on her side as well, but leaving destructive comments aren't gonna help her, dude, it'll just make her sink any deeper.

No, I'm not her fans, nor her haters. I'm just a potato who has too much free time and decided to stalk whoever on the news today lol. But this came to my mind; it's hard to find positive vibes from our environtment lately. It's easy to hate, to judge, to say bad things about the other people.. Because they feel safe, hiding behind their profile picture (which maybe fake).

Yes, Karin is not a great role model for our younger fellow. She's still so young, it's common for a kid her age for making mistakes. This generation tends to lose directions but they don't need any judgement. They don't need hatred. They don't need to be cursed, insulted, or anything else.. They need to be led to the right path, and throwing shades at them aren't gonna help them.

Like I said before, it's hard to find positive vibes these days. But instead of searching them, why not be one? Spread positive vibes. Be a constructive person. Be inspiring, be someone who brings smile to people's faces. Even if when you disagree on something, that doesn't give you the right to say rude words. I'm sure we all don't like to be cursed and to hear rude words. So don't give out one.

Just like Nelson Mandela said,
"Love is natural, hate is learned."
Potato out. Keep being a positive vibe! 

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Wednesday, August 3, 2016

The Art of Letting Go

I've been watching How I Met Your Mother a lot recently. That's what you do when you have too much free time to spare, while you're still picking up all the courage to do your responsibility but instead you chose to watch a TV serial you've been watched for 100x times now. (I'm at that point where I actually memorize all the scripts lol)

D's always been at me about watching something over and over again. He's like, "why do you watch it again when you already knew the story?" and I'm like, I don't know. One side, I'm that kind of person who doesn't like to try new thing when it's food and movies. I'd rather watch the old ones than watch the new ones and get disappointed by the bad plot or something. Second; I love how I always finding something new even when I watch old movies. It's like the phrases I never understood before but when I watch it again I'm like "ooooh I get it". Or when you accidentally chose to watch HIMYM Season 9's Sunrise episode and you're like, oh fuck; I get Ted's point.

Sunrise episode is about Barney and Robin's wedding weekend, where they lost drunk Barney and Ted and Robin went on a search for him. While being just the two of them, they started to reminisce their past, and that's when Ted unlearnt something: you love someone big enough to let them go.

It breaks my heart. I think this is the saddest episode throughout the whole season of even the whole serial.

When Ted met Jeanette to get Robin's something old, Jeanette accussed him of being crazy. She cannot understand why Ted's willing to went under a lot of pain just to make Robin happy; like trying to find Robin's old locket. Ted's answer blew me away; I didn't understand why I don't really remember this episode before but when I watch this now I can totally relate to that answer.

"If you're looking for the words that means caring about someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want, no matter how much it destroys you, it's love.
And when you love someone, YOU DON'T STOP. EVER.
Even when people roll their eyes and call you crazy. even then. especially then.
You don't give up, because if I could give up, if I could take the whole world's advice and move on and find someone else, that wouldn't be love.
That would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for."

I know then Ted found Tracy and she's everything he's been looking for. I know, someday, I'd find my Tracy too. I'd be happy with him, and he's all I've been looking for.
But just like Ted, I also know,
It wouldn't be the same if it's not Robin.